ブロイの影

ブロイの影 REBIRTH

2006-07-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

this blog is dead...

no... not yet... shadows do not dissipate...

it has returned...

ブロイの影　REBIRTH

this blog will no longer be functional... visit the new one... thank you...

Changes... Love them? Hate them?

2006-06-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

oh~~~ was meant to post the lyrics of a song here but no matter how hard i tried, i cannot get the stupid blog to post the lyrics...

maybe the whole page was too long already...

who cares anyway...

changes... some are good but some are horrible...

at this part of my life, horrible ones are just filling in and filling in and i cant take it... it's annoying and frustrating to see something that you care for so much change... and the worse thing is, not for the better but for the worse...

but what can i do? somethings are out of my control but how i wish i could control them and change them back to what i wanted... to the older times... the times that i've enjoyed...

these assholes just had to make me annoy and bring these changes around... and i'm not happy at all... they just make my school life a miserable one because every few steps i take, i see people i want to kill....

it's not completely my fault that i want to kill people... they deserve it...

and when some people say i have a foul temper, i could only thank them...

because they created my foul temperness...

changes... i'm trying to make myself change and adapt to the changes around... or even have the strength to change them back to how it was in the history...

my first steps had already begun...

by removing all those unwanted memories and any traces of them...

MSN contacts... Friendsters... Phone numbers...

i felt so happy deleting those people...

i do not want to have anything to do with them and to me, they do not exist in my life... and i will not allow them to surface in my life and change the things around me further... i will do anything to prevent it from happening...

but this is only the beginning of the removal...

secondary steps will kick in really soon...

haha (not a kind laughter, a sad one...)

we'll just wait and see...

Sight of those people makes me SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK!

2006-06-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

first day of term 3...

rested my blood vessels and eyes from those annoying people who made it to my To-Kill list...

it was during recess...

after 1 month of peacefulness and silence, suddenly the outburst of the barbaric yellings in the canteen, my head spun like mad...

and i could feel my blood pressure rising when i see those on the To-Kill list... i dont wanna see those people... but there are too many of them to avoid totally... whatever la huh...

then today have stupid exco meeting... really moronic meeting which wasted my time...

you know what? we have 3 council teachers and they have different aspirations for the council... 1 wants the council to be a circus, the other a military and the third, a business company thingie...

moronic people...

but the council is already a circus...

ya... i dunnoe what i'm typing but what the hell, who cares la huh...

My Anger, My Fear, My Everything...

2006-06-13T16:30:00.000+08:00

just to start, i'm going to kick off with a song lyric... specially decidated to someone... and that someone is the person i'm most afraid of now...

Evanescence - Whisper

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away

Don't turn away
Don't give into the pain
Don't Try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn of the light
Never sleep never die

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away

Dont't turn away
Don't give into the pain
Don't turn to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn off the light
Never sleep never die

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my very eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end

you always think that it's about you you and you only... why are you so self-centered? why must you always think that whatever i do is because of you? no! whatever i did is for myself and myself only... why must you always accuse me that i'm distrupting you? why dont you just see the other way round?

and when i admit it's my fault, you asked me not to because you know exactly that it's not my fault... and i apologized because i dont want matters to get worse... is it wrong to say sorry? or is it even more wrong to let someone else say sorry for you?!

and you say you would change, hopefully for the better... and you asked me to... yes i did change! what about you?! you said that you would reply my messages but you only replied at the third one i sent after like 3 hours later... and i promised i wont talk to you at night on fridays, saturdays and sundays... and i kept to that side of the bargain... what's wrong with you?!

i used to think that whatever i did was because i wanted to make myself happier... but i only realized that whatever i did was because i'm afraid... afraid that something will happen to me... not to you... you can be rotten for all i care but i dont want myself to be falling and falling and falling and falling...

why am i doing everything by myself? why is this so one sided? what's wrong? you no longer listen to me like you did in the past... even though what i told you was the truth... well fine... we'll see... WE'LL SEE...

i hate myself for doing all these... but again, i will also hate myself for not doing all these... now, i cant even trust myself... let alone anyone else... you've taken away my life... the only thing that i clinged onto so hard... it's painful...

i'm engulfed by fear... anger... frustration... and the most painful thing is that i have to keep everything behind a mask... a mask that isnt myself...

i want to be myself again... but i cant do it without your help...

you know what to do...

You Again...

2006-06-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

who's capable of making me so breathless? who is capable of making me upset for so many times?

you...

why? because i know that you're going to become a something that is not good for yourself... you know that... and even my sister has to suffer this same fate...

the 2 important people in my life... why?

this is madness~

i'm so pissed and angry!!!

i want to scream and shout and cry!!!

argh!!!

Everybody's Fool

2006-05-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

Everybody's Fool - Evanescence

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Specially dedicated to some insensitive people... and I meant PEOPLE... not Person... Person is singular, people is many people!

Must I always be the one who say sorry? Why can't it be you? It's not as though everything is MY fault! ASSHOLE!

Feeling Stupid...

2006-05-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

well well~ i have to update my blog again... because the lame jokes are getting old... so i have to come up with new ones to keep my 'audience' entertained...

yeah whatever...

if only someone who loves to poke his nose into other people's blogs come and read mine... well... apparently, he doesnt... even if i were to curse and swear at him.. he wont know...

haha...

anyway, i'm feeling stupid now so i dunnoe what i'm going to type...

these few days... really irritating... my mid-year results are not that good... but at least i'm happy with it... because all the results are kinda expected... so they didnt really slow me down...

but you know what, i have to thank a lot of really assholic people for keeping me pissed for a very very very very very long time...

and now... they just urge me to practise more on my sai...

and i was rewarded with a sprained arm... -_-"

but i'm going to practise more... in case i need to kill someone...

or at least kill them in my dreams...

well... in this entry... i have letters for people... and these letters might not be lame...

but i'm going to type them anyway...

it's MY blog people...

i type everything and you...

type nothing...

first letter... i want to write this to the person who constantly break me apart and the person who also glue me apart... but this person... most of the time is causing me more pain than happiness... but i'm just stupid enough to trust that person... but... i still appreciate the company... and i will not let that slip through because the element of 'trust' still exist... mildly...

"you know what... you caused me pain... you caused me insanity... you caused me everything... but do you know why i'm still alive? it's because i have to be alive to prevent my predictions from happening... my predictions are becoming true... so true that i cant even believe they are too... but there's nothing that i can do if you dont give a freaking damn about it... i feel tossed like some rubbish... sometimes, you make me sick... but sometimes, you dont... sometimes you just make me feel like stabbing you... but sometimes, i regret having that thought... but what can i do if you dont care? but you know what... i'm going to cling onto every single breath... to see... what will happen... to you and me...."

second letter... to this person who doesnt even know me... but who cares... i will pretend that person knows me and give hell of a scolding~ woo~ VENT my anger... or... i can just type this letter to that whole bunch of them... for my close friends, they will know that these people will make it easily to my 'To-Kill' list...

"you bunch of bitches and bastards... you know exactly what you do dont you? you manipulative bunch of people who pretends to be so angelical (dont care whether there is such a word) when you're not... you're just wolves in sheeps costumes and apparently, none of those sane people is able to realize... i have... i know what's going on... it's all your fault that i've died so many times... and do you know what? i'm going to get my revenge... very soon... everytime i see you bunch of people, i will clench my fist... hoping that it will fly right up your nose and hopefully, break every single piece of bone in your skull... i have the urge to grab a fork and dig your eyeballs out... i want an axe to smash your skull apart and dig out all your brain matter... you know how evil i can be dont you? so, to prevent your blood from staining my sai, keep yourselves to yourselves!"

third letter... hmmm... i dont know whether i should type it but... hmmm... i think i will keep it short... to this person... you disgusted me...

"you know what's happening dont you? we all know... you've been doing all sorts of things... to think that we can go back to the past and be that happy bunch of people... but no~! what did you do? mess up behind the walls? you've caused us so much agony... you ought to be ashamed of yourself... you make us so irritated... you make us wonder what's happening to you... dont you realize? and now, i even hear that you're speaking bad about some of us... including me... if you are seeking death, seek me... not them... you make me sick!"

well... these letters are not meant to be understood anyway... i'm just typing them for fun...

har har har...~

okay... have to go... tatas

Broy's Monday Times

2006-05-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

Broy's Monday Times
Price: $Free!

Mad Boy Planning to Murder People? All Talks or More than meets the Eye

Broy, aged 16, has been planning to kill some of those really annoying people who gets into his way, all the times. They had been messing with plans and lives and he is apparently not happy. However, it just seems like this boy is just going through a tough time, uttering completely nonsense.

Or is it ONLY nonsense or does this code represents something?

When interviewed, he said, "I'm going to kill these people whose names start with CCCCMJJSSGK and many more to be added to the 'To Kill List'." However, when asked, he did not reply who those people meant.

"I just hate those people. Pretentious and really annoying and everytime I walk pass them in school, I clench my fist and and swallow all the anger within. Killing them wont make things end. But IT'S A START!"

But is he going to kill them? Doctors had said that the boy is undergoing complete madness at this period of his life when his best buddy/friend/what-ever-he-calls-him/her/it is starting to neglect him, tossing him away like a poor puppy left on the streets to die.

If anyone sees this little dog on the street, please call the SPCA at *^$!&$*#&)($(%(*^. (P.S. I don't remember the number...)

Kittens in Danger - Operation Save-Kitties

It was just some other afternoon after Broy returns home, with his school tie off his neck and his shirt all tucked out, trying to concentrate on the computer. However, a phone call distracted him. His brother had told him that he spotted the target - a small little cute kitty kitty kitty with black fur and really beady eyes; a kitten.

Broy immediately switched his gear to action mode and in his worst, he went downstairs to look at the cat. He saw a Malay middle aged man looking at the kitten as well, holding a cup of milk. The man was not acting suspicious and his act of kindness made Broy think that cats are being appreciated.

Or at least kittens.

Then, Broy's brother alerted him about the real operation - 2 kittens stuck in a concrete cage with a utility pipe meter as their decoration. In the 'cage' was a container with cat food which apparently stunk like mad and ants which seems to be feasting on the junk.

Broy tried to interact with the kittens but the kittens seem to be afraid of him, running around the place. After a few minutes, Broy was already soaked in his own perspiration and he tried to carry the kittens out from the concrete cage to let them have some fresh air and to be free. Mission accomplished? Not quite.

When he returned home, he bath and suddenly, his brother told him that some moron placed the kitties kitties back into the stinking place. Broy went along with his brother and looked at what was happening. Indeed, some idiot who has no heart placed the kittens back. The brothers investigated the area, checking for clues tha the kittens might jump backing into the junkyard. Broy noticed that the kittens could not even climb up the utility pipe nor climb out from a drain properly and thus, could definitely not be able to jump great heights.

The kittens were freed again and made to enjoy the greenery. They were more lively outside their captive area and they are definitely more happy.

Whoever who placed them inside the concrete cage has no heart. Please do not do this to the kittens because if they die and Broy knows about it, be prepared to DIE!

If you are interested in how the kittens look like, look at the following pictures.

This is the Black Kitty Kitty Kitty with the Beady Eyes. The hand does not belong to me to idiots who think so. The hand belongs to the Kitty Kitty Kitty lover, just like me. :-D

These are the 2 innocent kitty kitty kitties that the evil ones were trying to hold hostage by placing them in the concrete cage.

This is the concrete cage with the kitty kitty kitties that they were held in. It stunk like mad and just look at how dirty the interior were.

Annoying Neighbor Who Gets Up People's Nerve

Evening, peaceful but suddenly, shoutings were heard.

Nope, you're wrong. No one is raped.

The annoying neighbors are performing again, with my brother as the special feature, performing the song "I Did Not"

Neighbor, who I shall call Mr Ass, saw my brother cycling pass the neighbor's door. Suddenly, Mr Ass's moronic and imbecilic son, who I shall call urine, ran into the path. No one was knocked down but Mr Ass started to yell at my brother. The rest is a long lengthy story so I shall put them like I would in a script.

Scene 1: Outside the Neighbor's Door

Mr Ass: I saw you trying to bang my son with your bike!

Brother: He blocked my way. I was just trying to cross until you popped your head out and started nagging.

Mr. Ass: 我明明看到你要橦我的孩子
(I saw with my very eyes that you want to knock my son)

Brother: 我每次要拿轿车，你的孩子就会pop出来block我的路
(Everytime I want to get my bicycle, your son will always pop his into my way)
我去年要考PSLE，他就会很吵。我哥哥今年考O Level,他也是很吵。他每次站在门外大喊大叫。
(Last year when I was going to sit for PSLE, he would make noise. This year, my brother is taking his O
Levels, he also make noise. He will always stand outside my door and make noise)

Mr. Ass: When you are P4, you are also making a lot of noise. Now my Urine make a lot of noise, then you nag.

Brother: When we first moved here, of course we were noisy. (Did some stupid actions to explain etc etc..)

Mr. Ass: 不要提以前的事。
(Do not dig up the past)

Brother: 你也是提以前的事
(You also dig up the past)

Mr. Ass: (starts to yak 大道理 [Big Reasons])

Brother: (interrupts) 我没有空听你的大道理。(Rode away with his bike) Some people!!!
(I dont have time to listen to your Big Reasons)

Scene 2: Back Home Past the Irritating Neighbor's House

Brother: (walks home innocently until 1 or 2 metres away from the door and then Mr. Ass popped his head out)

Mr. Ass: 不爽啊？！
　　　　(Not Happy is it?!)

Brother: (In the house, slammed the gate and shouted) 我就是不爽！你要这么样？！
(Ya! I not happy! Cannot ah!)

Scene 3: In the Bedroom (Operation Urine)

Brother: (Storms in and complains)

Me: 我知道这么对付那个Urine了。
(I know how to deal with the Urine)

Brother: (Nodded)

Me: 我有两个方法。　第一：我们把Ｕｒｉｎｅ带回家，问：“Ｕｎｃｌｅ，你儿子失踪了，我把它带回来。
(Firstly, we bring Urine home, and ask the uncle, "Uncle, your son went missing and i'm here to bring him home.)　
　　　　　　　　　　第二：我们把Ｕｒｉｎｅ带回家，说：“Ｕｎｃｌｅ，不要把垃圾染丢。
(Secondly, we bring Urine home, and say, "Uncle, your rubbish dont anyhow throw)

Brother and Me: (Laughs)

Well... End of today's LENGTHY but INFORMATIVE News. See you next time.

It's Happening all Over Again...~

2006-04-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

why is this happening again? huh? why?!

doushite?!

i thought the hiccup is over... but it's beginning all over again... and i dont know what to do about it... someone please help me...

although i doubt you can do any help besides saying 'poor boy...' or 'you're so unlucky'...

but please dont say things like 'it's your own business' or 'dont make your business mine' or something even worse like 'you deserve it...'

because i didnt ask for all these things...

and these are not MY doings... i'm the innocent party...

I-N-N-O-C-E-N-T

but why must i go through this mental torment?

well... take a look at the two things which happened again...

The 6... Divided?
just when i thought the matter is over when we can talk and laugh at each another again... the whole affair has to start all over again...

why?

is making each another upset really a joy? is keeping quiet and not voicing out your opinions a joy? i dont think so... there is so much i have to say... but i dont want to...

why...

because i dont want to hurt anyone in the process... i feel a very weak glue which is not functioning well... trying to find out what's wrong and trying to glue bits and pieces back again...

why cant i have things back in the past? is the present and future so miserable? for me?

many bad things had happened to me... but please dont let this be another...

never judge a book by its cover... and this book refers to me...

no one is at fault... no one wanted this to happen... where is the trust? where is our voice?

where is our happiness?

please let this matter settle and dematerialize as soon as possible...

please...~

Corrupted Organization; A Story
well well... if you read my previous blog entry, you will know what this corrupted organization refers to... in this entry, i shall call it...

'that corrupted organization'...

read this story... if you understand it, good for you... if not, i'll find a way to bring the thing across so that only clever enough people will understand and those who are poor at comprehension cant... let me play with words...

read this...

thursday... another day for a boy called broy... a boy who worked his ass off for 3 years with the organization... doing whatever he was told... and there was no deny to that... people have eyes to see... he did neglect his duties once in awhile... but he was generally okay...

he held a position in the committee in the organization... the bosses used to be nice... but somehow, things just changed...

after the incident which happened in the stadium... the operation which the organization had to carry out... a simple operation which changed the mindset of this boy...

now, he can no longer trust any of the bosses, fearing that they will come up with stupid things for him to do... fearing that if he were to do his work properly and if something goes wrong, his bosses will not shield him... the sense of security disappeared like vapour over time...

he stood up from the bench and placed his work on the wooden table... three of his colleagues, one also a committee... told him that there was going to be another one of those emergency meetings...

it has to be another operation...

everyone in the organization gathered together... with gaps in between one another though... the male boss started to speak... telling us about the operation at the reservoir for friday... everyone across the whole organization had to take part as it is a working day... so, there was no excuse...

no one complained...

yet...

the new female boss stepped over and started speaking with a tone which bugs people... it's one of those authorative voice, close to the voice of control... broy used to like this boss when he went to an outing to malaysia... she was fun loving and nice to be with then... but that was history...

she had changed after her promotion... her character now... no one liked that attitude that she gives... any stranger could have just walked up to her and give her several tight slaps... broy tolerated her nonsense...

she announced that there will be another operation on saturday... an operation which only is compulsory for the rank 2 and 3 employees to attend... their duties were told and explained... the rank 4 sat and watch... including broy...

however, what changed the quiet and peaceful atmosphere was when she said that the rank 4 is required to do some other duties... and this duty is a duty which people detested... which people thinks that only clowns will do... this duty is cheer leading...

mumblings arose within the group of the rank 4 employees... mostly unhappy with the decision because it was made very clear that the rank 4 were promised to be out of this operation... it was promised on the previous emergency meeting that the rank 4 were excluded because they had to do more work for a major operation in november...

many were unhappy and mainly pissed... the bosses promised... but they broke it... there goes broy's trust again... for the second time... broy went up to 2 other rank 4 employees and they started talking...

'this is not fair! they have already told us that we were exluded from the operation!'

'yeah! i have plans on saturday! i cant possibly cancel it... not now!'

'we have to voice our opinions... we cannot be unheard of...!'

after the meeting, the three of us went up to another male boss, not the one who told about operation reservoir... he is another boss... a more reasonable and approachable boss... broy had always respected him... but he fear that his boss might do something stupid one day to lose that... but for now, broy respected him...

the three of them told the boss about the matter... the boss seems lost and thus, found the female boss...

the female boss turned away from who she was talking to and gave them the disgusting look...

'yes?' she was apparently not happy with their interruption...

the male boss explained the matter and we stood there and they waited for an answer...

'this is an organization project... no one is to be excluded... besides, this is going to be your last assignment'

the faces of the three swelled with anger... one stepped out and started to speak

'cant we make operation reservoir our last operation?'

'yeah! we have a major operation in november and there will be a second major one in May! we have to prepare!' broy said...

the boss seemed angry...

but the three did not bother about her... they had the right of speech... and broy was glad that he did so... he had voiced out his inner feelings and will not be allowed to be bullied by this new boss...

broy is in the organization longer than the boss... he knows more than the boss knows about the operations in the organization...

and to him, a promise is a promise... and he will not allow himself to be cheated... never!

the female boss turned away... the male boss explained that he will try to speak up for us... he understands the rank 4's plight...

broy thought that the answer was satisfactory... he left... along with the other two...

in his mind, he told himself...

i will never allow them to make me do this operation... and whether they like it or not, i will not go... i will not allow them to manipulate me... i have worked so hard in this organization and it's prudent to allow me to rest... and furthermore, i shall not allow them to break a promise they made to the rank 4s... they will not win... i will...

this broy... is me...

well... finally finished this story... long but i've explained everything... like i said... only clever people will understand... i hope you are because i want people to know about this...

well... really tired of typing now... bye...~

Tests Tests and Almost Everyday Tests~!!!

2006-04-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

so many tests these few weeks... almost everyday have tests... be it a mini test, a major test or just some stupid test which the teachers want to give...

o please~~~ give me a break~~~

this is getting barbaric... having test on almost everyday... and there goes all my precious sleep...

and today, i thought i wont have any test...

but surprise! a math test... E math paper 1... cannot use calculator... and thus, i think for this test i died very badly... :p and i skipped a lot of questions because i couldnt be bothered...

well, the relieving thing was that it's not counted for the SA... muah ha ha ha ha...

anyway, i didnt type my blog these few days because there was nothing better to say... managed to find time to type now while waiting for my youngest brother to finish bathing so i can bath...

so... nothing happened these few days though... all i can say was that it rained and rained and rained... that's the only thing i can remember... :p

and... what else can i say...

hmmm... regarding the 'family-that's-falling-apart'... well... i can see that it's coming back into one piece again... at a rather fast pace in fact... but not fully yet... i hope it will come together quickly... i missed the times when we enjoyed so much... :D

o well... i'm going off already... i really have nothing much to say already...

tata~~~

i do not reap what i sow... the care i gave... i never get them back... why...

Ayumi Hamasaki - (miss)understood

2006-04-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

浜崎あゆみ　－　(miss)understood

大丈夫だって言い聞かせて
得意の笑顔に切り替える
投げやりだっていうんじゃなくて
開き直ったっていう感覚

震える手を隠したのは
同情がさむすぎるから

中途半端で見せかけだけの
温もりなんかじゃ温まりない
それならいっそ見ないフリして
跡形もなく砕け散るまで

今更きれい事だなんで
聞くつもりも言うつもりもない
痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ

こわいくらい澄んだ空気は
嵐が来る前の静けさ

親切そうなあの人々は
本当は何を知りたいのだろう
優しげな目の奥に鋭い
好奇という名のナイフ隠して

君は一体何が欲しいの
君は一体何を願うの
君一体どこを目指すの
そしてそこへは誰と向かうの

君が君で生きられるのは
最初で最後この一度だけ
大きな地図を広げた後は君だけの道を描けばいい

(i typed all these myself)

Translation:

I said to myself "I'm OK"

And showed my usual smile

I didn't feel in desperation

But in a kind of defiance

I hid my trembling hand

Because their sympathy was so hollow
I don't get warmed

By the half-hearted and artificial warmth

I rather want them to shut their eyes

Until I break into pieces without a trace

I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it

The air is awfully clear

The calm before a storm

What do those people really want to know

With seemingly kindness

Hiding a sharp knife of curiosity

Behind their gentle looking eyes?

What do you really want?

What do you really wish?

Where do you really aim for?

And with whom?

It's the first and the last time

For you to live just as yourself

You should draw your own way

After spreading a big map

(Translation from http://ayumi.primenova.com/lyrics/missunderstood.htm)

Buroi no Kage : Revival (for a moment at least...)

2006-04-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

yo people~ due to popular demand, i'm shameless aint i, i'm trying to revive my blog...

again...

well, what excuse shall i give for not typing my blog these few months?

"i'm lazy"

okay... fullstop...

well... what makes me want to start my blog again?

the many things happening in my life made me... there are too many things happening around so i think it will be good if i can just put them here to express all my feelings... god~ long time didnt blog now my typing sucks...

anyway...

let me tell you some of the 'hot' topics that i've been engaged in these few days...

or weeks...

or...

never mind...

since there are many things i'm going to say in this blog entry, let me split it up using sub-headings...

Family Conflict arousing Curiousity of others... [Yellow... For i want happiness back again...]

first of all... the internal conflict with so many people from our class has noticed... and what can i say about it? nothing... thank you... for curious people, please wait patiently for the explanation next time when everything is settled...

well... for people involved in this conflict... we all know exactly what is happening...

just talking about it makes me want to sigh~

haiz..........

why is this happening to us? is the family going to crumble into nothing?

どうして？！

the misunderstanding has to go... and it will...

trust me on this...

anyway, i have no idea what i'm talking about... i'm just trying to see how much space i can occupy by crapping...

it's a hard job you know...~ must admire my patience for thinking of new crap to talk about...

well well... this is not the only thing that is happening to poor broy... there is more...

here comes another sub-heading...

Student Council; the Organization which torments Me [Red... For expressing my anger]

so many things had happened to me because of the student council and you know what? it makes me detest the council for the very first time in my 4 years education... i've taken so long to realize that being in the student council means i will need to suffer...

what do i need to suffer? i have to sacrifice my time for meetings... i have to do tasks and when they are not done properly, i get yelled at... and if they are well done, nothing will happen to me... i have to shout at people for their misdeeds and when i tell the teacher, they dont bother... if they dont care, why should i?

let me tell you more... do you know that every birthday that i've spent in the school as a councillor is always terrible... let me give you an example... sec 2, sports day... i have to go and do gate duty and make sure anyone else, including me, doesnt sneak back home... sec 3, i had to attend exco meeting until 6 something in the pm... sec 4, which is this year, i have to force myself to attend the council meeting although i submitted a letter that i would not go... and guess what, the teachers wanted to scold me because of the letter because they are not dumb not to detect the sarcasm inside the letter...

i'm unlucky... that's what i can say...

as a sec 4, the councillors should be left alone to study for the o levels or at least to rest after providing service to the school for the past years... but no~ i have to do duties like some other councillors...

for instance, sports day this year really pissed me off and it's because of this incident, i start to hate the council board, including the teachers leading it... they are practically using up all my free time and PERSONAL time to do things that if i were to complain, i will be yelled at...

where is my freedom of speech?!

here at least...

o yes... back to the topic... i was attending to the 'cute' and 'adorable' sec 1s who are so assholic and irritating and annoying and i was shouting at them because it's either they dont understand english or they are deaf... or both... and when i went to tell the teacher that those little monkeys were misbehaving, she asked me to let them be...

let them be?! then what's the point of me doing duty?! i felt redundant and helpless...

the council teachers always say that they will be behind the councillors... let me tell you, after this incident, this statement is officially

BULLSHIT!

what else... yeap... this saturday, my school is going to perform at the DBS arts centre and my chinese teacher gave me 2 tickets to go to the show... so i planned to go out with フグイ... for i wanted to enjoy my saturday afternoon...

but do you know what?!

i have to do ushering duty... and i was planning what to wear here and they ruinned my plans...

although i've told the teacher that i have tickets for this thing, i'm not spared... i had to do duty then after that, go inside for the show...

i mean, all the other councillors who did not buy the tickets will be able to go in after the duty... what difference does it make if i have the ticket or not... pissed... i'm so pissed~ the only good thing that i can think of is that we get the better seats... that's all! this is so unfair... i want justice done!

22nd april... stand down of all CCAs... i cant wait for this day... then, i will be spared from the torments of this corrupted organization and i will be alone... like a normal student... oh how i wish i'm just a normal students and i shall be the one being shouted by the councillors... why is it the other way round...

but i have to be prepared... i wont be surprise if after 22nd april, i have continue doing duty... because...

it's a corrupted organization...

o well... typing all these makes me feel pissed all over again... now... let me go to the third bad thing that is going to happen... on saturday too...~ and it's because of the council ushering duty, this happens... read this...

p.s... any other councillors who read this, keep it to yourself because i'm sick of having to argue with teachers... thank you very much...

and if teachers were to read this, i have to say sorry because this is what i feel and i have the right to type what i want so long as i didnt break the law of singapore...

A girl who LOVES poking her nose into other people's plans... [Green... for you make me sick!]

this girl has been poking her nose into my plan for saturday...

knowing that my saturday was already ruinned by the corrupt organization, i was pissed enough when i went for the usher duty briefing this afternoon, sacrificing math lesson, which i'm not sad for sacrificing...

but what makes me more pissed is when this fuc...ing (oops, i sweared~ but who cares!) セラリン is going to spoil my plans for saturday...

as my birthday so happens to be this month, i treated my friends and family to pizza... and the only person that i've not treated and this person plays a major role in keeping me sane, フグイ...

well, since i was going to ask him out for the show on saturday, which is unfortunately ruinned by the duty which i dreaded doing, i thought of treating him to dinner after the show... and since the excos had to do the duty at the 7pm slot and i had the tickets for the 2pm slot, it's only wise that both of us are doing the 2pm slot duty...

but... this silence between two will soon be broken by the 3rd person... セラリン ... she has totally spoiled my plans... knowing her, she will tag along with us if i were to treat フグイ to dinner... and the best part is, フグイ wont mind her coming along...

but i MIND totally!

so, i expressed my piss-ness to フグイ... and i warn him that if my attitude on saturday is bad, it's because of セラリン 's unwanted appearance...

i'm still thinking of a way to get rid of her... i told フグイ that if she were to follow us, i will give up my ticket to the both of them and i will go ahead and do the 7pm slot...

correction, i shall just stay at home... i've better things to do besides repeating 'this way please' like a broken tape recorder...

my friends and sister told me to tell セラリン off... but something in me just didnt allow that to happen... i DO want to tell her off but it wont be nice...

but if i were nice to an enemy, i'm being cruel to myself... what a dilemma...

the only way to solve this problem is that フグイ has has has~ to be on my side for the first thing, which is hardly possible considering that セラリン is so manipulative, and that i have to have the guts to say 'hey bitch... do you know your presence makes me SICK?! get out of my sight!'...

haiz... anyway... i'll see on saturday... there are many strategics to use...

but they wont be nice ones...

typing these entries just made me feel that it's necessary for me to voice out my opinions... and i feel so pissed again...

フグイ ... if you read this entry... please dont get angry because these are my thoughts... you know that...

o well... let me end here... this blog is reasonably interesting enough and long enough to keep people reading... shall type again...

when i feel like it...

tatas~

[blue... for i like this color...]

Found Time at Last~

2006-01-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

oops... sorry for not updating because i'm damn busy these few days...

tests homeworks meeting...

etc etc...

and today, it's my best day of the week because i get to go home earliest... :p and if it's not because the teacher isnt around, i think i will still be in school at this moment when i'm type...

i like this feeling... :p

anyway, chinese new year is coming soon and tomorrow is going to be the celebration...

but what's new... the school's celebration is always so ever boring...~ and i hope i feel entertained tomorrow... but i doubt so... judging from some reasons that just wont make the celebration a nice one...

o anyway, i dont feel like typing already because i wanna go and eat and sleep... i seriously need to catch up on my sleep...

bye...~

Trip to Singapore Polytechnic

2006-01-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

today, all the sec 4s in my school are required to go to one poly in singapore...

actually, i chose nayang poly... but then it was like no one was going there in my class.. so i changed my mind and went to singapore poly instead...

around 1 something, we took the bus from the school to the poly... it was quite far because it was all the way in dover... there were only 4 guys in the bus and the rest were girls... so sad right... haha...

so, we went there... i hanged around with su xin, sheereen, athena and ruiboon and we went around the place to browse through... being in a place crowded like mad and with people looking at you, you will feel kinda awkward... it was kinda uneasy... :p

we walked around the place trying to see the displays but we had no idea what the hell are the displays talking about because they are just too chim... then we just walked around and look at the funny funny things they made...

then, there was this guy who asked us whether or not we wanted to go on a tour to an electronic place... and we had no idea what he was talking about... so, just to make him happy, we accepted the offer and was brought around the place, looking at all the new gadgets that the people from the poly had came up with...

i remember at this particular place where they have this voice recoqnision remote control for the tv in which you have to call upon a robot to change the channel of the tv and stuff... it might sound kinda fascinating but you know what, the robot refused to listen to what the person said and commanded and i was like 'what a 'cute' robot...'

at the end of that display, the guide asked us what do we think about it... and i was like 'if we need to watch a tv programme urgently, wont we have to quarrel with the computer before it switches the channel?'

there were some fun parts to the thing...; the free thingies... :p

besides pamphlets and sheets of paper that the people just kept stuff into our hands, we had free drinks and ice cream... :p

initially, we didnt know that there was free ice cream until athena realized it... and being lost in the place, athena put on a thick skin and went around asking... 'where did you get the ice cream from?' and i was like 'athena, you very thick skin ah...' :P

anyway, thanks to her, we got free ice cream... :p

then, after the entire thing, we went home on the MRT...

and it rained cats and dogs today...

good thing i alighted at the correct station with ruiboon and took the correct bus which led me home without getting too wet...

o well... here are some pictures i took today... enjoy... :p

this doggie is a robot which carries the chinese new year thingie and it navigated through the

crowd of people without knocking into anything... cute right?

this is the first thing that i noticed around the school... a big balloon car... :p

Moronic Vendor

2006-01-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

sweet revenge... muah ha ha ha ha ha ha...

today after school, the SPO vendor came to the school to get the vetted copy of the SPO...

and i always never liked that man because he was such an asshole... we were paying him to do the SPO and he has so many comments on how and what to do... it's like... hello, we pay you to do and you are giving me all kinds of moronic comments... shut up~

and guess what... the copy he gave us was filled with idiotic mistakes like spelling mistakes, no spacing and etc... and they are really stupid ones... i cant believe that we, as students, have to teach adults english... but that shows them never to underestimate anyone who is younger because they dont know what they are in for...

anyway, we were telling the vendor about the mistakes... and ya... the teacher told him all the content mistakes while we, the councillors, told him about the english mistakes and we had a great time laughing at those mistakes...

for example, for the national anthem, they can combine the malay version and english translation together... and the anthem sound stupid...

and when we told the vendor, i was like "that's the best joke of the week"...

when we showed him the spelling mistakes, i told him that there was a very 'cute' page with lotsa mistakes...

and you know what he say? he said that that page wasnt done by him... we gave him the copy and he just used our copy...

well, it doesnt alter the fact that there are a lot of 'cute' mistakes in the text... and i doubt any of my school's teachers are dumb enough to mispell everything in the text... so i was argueing with him, saying that it's not the teachers' fault but he just die die said it was our fault...

see see... we pay him to get lectured... any normal person would get angry...

but, the fun part was that the copy we gave was a soft copy... meaning, it was already printed on paper... so, what he has to do is to get his people to re-type everything out again... and when we showed him the soft copy, i was like "see, it's not our fault because the very 'cute' person had made the mistakes..."

and that shut him up because it was his problem already... not ours...

so, he was like "i will get that very 'cute' person to amend the mistakes." so sad for him right... i know... he's obviously messing with the wrong person and i wasnt really happy at that moment too... but, he gave an excuse, saying that the person was from china and didnt know english well...

in my mind, i was like "then you've employed the wrong person... what has it got to do with me? so sad for you la..."

anyway, when he left, i cant stop laughing at his stupidity... i've finally showed him that the people from my school is not nice to deal with...

so, on next monday, i will be seeing him again, i think, to see the corrected copy... so, i'll see what other nice suan-ing tricks i can think of and make him look ugly...

muah ha ha ha ha ha ha....

Project? Part 2

2006-01-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha... today was really funny... i had a great time laughing...

sheereen and su xin came over to my house today... and we wanted to continue doing the project that we did yesterday...

but then, we only spent around 5 minutes on the project... because we just inserted the pictures...

and guess what was our cover page...

sheereen's face...~ :P she made a funny face and it was really really funny.... su xin and i had a great laugh at that until we had a stomach ache...

o well... if you are interested in the cover page, tell me... then i show you... :p

anyway, when we finished inserting the pictures, we went to play DDR...

and they were horrible at DDR... but they enjoyed themselves nevertheless... and i was at one side laughing and laughing because they were screaming and screaming... really funny...

sheereen took the 'down' and 'right' sensor while su xin took the 'up' and 'left' sensor... and the two of them were like jumping like mad on the DDR mat... i took a video of that... haha... really funny...

o well... we had a great time playing today...

have to end here now.. i'm kinda tired after laughing... bye...

Project?

2006-01-17T19:03:00.000+08:00

hello~ i got time to type today...

haha... :p

today bio was so fun because the relief teacher was so fun... mr lim is his name... :p anyway, me, suxin, sheereen and athena were thinking about what design we should do for the class t-shirt...

then, i thought that we write our names on a menu and su xin suggested that we put the price as priceless... then stupid selwyn go and say put worthless... we had a good laugh...

then i thought of another idea of putting everyone's name into a newspaper article... and the idea was pretty original and cool... :p yeah~...

anyway, after school, i went to sheereen's house along with ruiboon and su xin to do our geography project... sheereen and i didnt do much actually... we just drew the tables and etc... and we designed a 'fatty you' movie poster... it was so cute... :P

then after the entire thing, we went downstairs to play badminton... then we went home...

o well... they said that tomorrow, they are going to come over to my house... then i will continue the part 2... :P haha...

Long Time No Update... I see Spider Webs...

2006-01-16T17:32:00.000+08:00

yoo hoo~

hello everybody again~

it has been a long time ever since i updated my blog...

you know why?

let me tell you why...

i'm too lazy to type and furthermore, i'm too tired to type because school has wasted all my time and energy...

i dont even have enough sleep... let alone have time to type down here...

anyway, since i'm kinda free now... i can update my blog...

and since people are asking me to update, i update lorx... what's the point of having a blog when there are no updates coming in... :P

therefore, i shall take out some time and type my blog everyday...

if possible... :p

anyway... what's going on during the period of me not updating my blog...

nothing much actually... i didnt do much... :p just school and school and homework and e math and complains and etc etc...

o well... i dont think i should talk too much on my first entry of the year because i have seriously nothing to talk about besides the fact that today, i almost fell asleep during chinese and physics class...

chinese is because i was really sleepy... physics was because it's just plain boring... the dull-est subject i've ever watched...

and oh ya... i bought a pair of really expensive shoes... :S but heck coz that's not important...

this saturday going out with su xin, athena, selwyn, rabiah and sheereen to watch memoirs of a geisha... i love zhang ziyi's eyes... haha...

okay... nothing much to crap today... sayonara... :D

Suffering from Bad Luck...

2005-11-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

have you ever suffered from bad luck before? i bet everyone must have...

but have anyone suffered bad luck which can really break a person down just like that? and really spoil a person's mood entirely?

i have...

let me tell you what happened these few days... and what can i conclude from all these incidents?

i'm officially suffering from bad luck...

okay... there was this funeral at my void deck that day... i think a few days back... and it maybe what is causing all the bad luck because having a funeral at your own void deck is not really nice... and everytime i walk out from the elevator, i have to walk backward to avoid eye contact with the picture...

then, a few days later when the funeral end, on 7th November 2005... i was so tired that i fell asleep... then, when i woke up, my sister and brother told me something really gross...

that my photo frame is an ant nest... and that was my favorite photo frame... and i had to throw it away because i cant possibly keep ants as my pets because i hate ants...

then, i wrapped everything into a plastic bag and went outside to dump it... and when i was outside, i noticed the elevator in the middle [i got 3 elevators in my block... and the middle elevator was what i always avoided during the funeral period because if you walk straight out, you see the coffin and the picture of the deceased], opening and closing, opening and closing again and again... at that moment, there was no one in the elevator...

i freaked out and just dumped the frame down the chute and went home...

next day, i went out... and my mood wasnt that good... perhaps i didnt sleep well the previous night... i didnt mean to be so grumpy when i go out because i'm not suppose to be... i dont want to be... and i almost made the person who i went out with angry... or is he already angry?

when we came back from the going-out trip, we came back and i saw this person in red ran out from my neighboring block's void deck... he shouted to someone on a higher storey... when i asked my friend whether did he see the person, he said no... and i thought i saw a ghost...

but later, he told me that he saw the person... and so, that's not really true so i ignored it...

at night, i was talking on the phone... and there was an interruption... and seriously, i hated that but what can i do? so i waited...

but until i was dragged into the conversation, i was so upset because i'm like a creep listening to someone else's conversation... i had the urge to just say... 'i had enough! i wanna hang up' and hang up but i didnt do it because i cant bring myself to do that...

so, i suppose that is bad luck...

today afternoon, i called the person again... another interruption came... and this time, i was like so pissed... why do people like to choose the wrong timing... or was it pure bad luck? so i said... 'i will call you back when you're done...'

and i hanged up... and i waited and called back... but the person wanted to go to bed... so i hanged up again...

so... i survived the bad luck until now and i hope that i wont have any more bad luck...

and interruptions...

i wont blame anyone for this...

just blame it on bad luck...

End of Sec 3... A torturous year...

2005-10-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

it's finally the end of the school year...

or not... because i have to go back to school during the school holidays for council stuff and etc etc etc... teachers cant bare to see us go to holiday that easily... no way...

anyway, last few days didnt type blog because i dont want to because there is nothing for me to say because i've been running up and down the school doing this and that until i lost track of the dates and time... so... the entire week was rather packed so ya... i need my beauty sleep so didnt type the blog... :P

last day of school... get back report book... o well... at least i improved a bit... what more can i ask for because in my class, competition is really high and i'm not one of those competitive ones so i dont really care...

all that matters is that it is over and i'm happy about it... :D

o well... nothing much happened except that there is this bitch which came to my house and quarrelled with me because her little assholic daughter bullied my brother and i was like scolding that slut's bitchy mother because she was in the wrong and she makes it like our fault...

and the worse thing was, my father sided them... i was so upset when i realized that he was helping someone who he apparently dont know rather than his sons... so, i was so angry with him that i yelled at him... and at the bitch of course...

i told my brother never to say sorry to that bitch's daughter because bitches dont deserve sorrys... especially when they are in the wrong... no way...

so... if next time that bitch dares to mess with my brother, or me for that matter, i'm so going to yell at her and make sure she goes home disappointed...

well anyway, shall end my blog here because my fingers are aching already... :P

Reduced to Ashes... (con't from yesterday...)

2005-10-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

o yeah! can finally post the pictures again... maybe one day can only post 5 pictures... but who cares?! i got them here anyway... :P

okay... here are the pictures i've been trying up upload since yesterday... and i only get to upload them today... enjoy... :D

The paper is burning with that purple flame... Seems magical isnt it? :P

Wee~ The paper is more than half gone... So happy... :P

The End to the Paper...
The End to Exams...

Reduced to Ashes...

2005-10-20T10:47:00.000+08:00

guess what?!

i've finally burned the paper that i've been longing to burn...

THE EXAM TIME TABLE!

and i got several pictures of it... it's really cool... :P

you know why this time i took so many pictures? because some people requested for the entire process of the burning...

watch... but learn at your own risk... :P

Secondary 3 Bowen students! Remember this?! The paper that we all hate the most? (or majority hates the most...)
Watch... It's still in one piece but not for long...

Candles... I love Candles... And this time, It's going to burn this nightmare into ashes...

It's Burning! It's Burning!!! YEAH!

Magical Flames! (P.S... That's not my hand... If it's mine, I cant take that picture... :P)

Don't you just love that purple flame? It's so COOL~!!!

well... eventually... it reduced to ashes but somehow, i cant manage to post the 3 remaining pictures up... so watch out for my next blog entry and perhaps i will add those pictures in... :D

It's Over... Finally...

2005-10-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

o yes! the exams are finally over! i'm so happy... woo hoo... :P

can finally sleep and type blog already without thinking about what to study next...

no more nights with notes and books and god-knows-what...

and it's time to play my head off...

yeah~ :P

o well... a lot of people asked me whether i'm going to burn my exam time table and the answer is...

YES! DEFINITELY...!

but not now because my father might think i'm crazy... so let's do it when no adults are there you yell 'You want to set the house on fire ah?!'

i will do the burning tomorrow and post the pictures... remember to come and take a look... :P

good bye for now... :D

To...

2005-10-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

To: Someone that Important...

Is working really that important to you? Is earning money really important to you? If that's the case, I shall stick to my way of saving money because to me, working is not everything...

From: Someone not that Important and Insignificant...
The Shadow...

A-Math Teacher... MISSING

2005-09-28T18:47:00.000+08:00

today wasnt a really nice day because i came back home at a damn late time... no thanks to the exco meeting... -_-"

A-math teacher wasnt in school today and so here came a relief teacher...

she is one of the teachers that most of the students will avoid because she is those scolding-people type... however, she dont scold directly... she uses the skill called 'scold people without actually scolding them', in other words, nag or lecture... but sometimes, she can be very scary...

and she was very scary in our class today... not because she was going to yell at us or something... nope... the way she taught us was scary...

she is an A math teacher and she boasted about how good her math was and blah blah blah... anyway, if she was that good, why didnt she go and be the head of math department but instead went to the student welfare dunnoe what thingie?

she taught trigo ratios and those stuff today in class... my actual A math teacher had actually finished teaching that chapter but she is just going through that chapter with us, wanting us to understand why these equations exist and why this over this equals to that and etc...

when she started teaching, the whole class thought that she was cuckoo... because apparently, i think her brain somehow sot sot already... this is the first time i'm afraid of a teacher's teaching method... it was really scary...

she would ask any random people any random questions... and she will keep asking us to key in stuff into the calculator... and she will call my friend's name wrongly... :P she will even pull out one of my classmate and wipe the sweat off his hand and yuck...

i was like... 'hee hee... is she here to teach math or scare the hell outta us?' it was really freaking to have a teacher who seem crazy in class... extremely crazy...

i hope she doesnt come and teach my class again... i dont wanna face that mad woman in class anymore...

it's just too freaky...

Headache~

2005-09-27T16:18:00.000+08:00

phew... the weather is so bad that it's giving me a headache now...

maybe the lack of sleep is also causing me this...

well, thanks to that bitch, i cant sleep yesterday...

but at least i got some news that the bitch is not going to win the battle because someone finally stood up and say all the bad things she did and i'm so proud of him... :D

okay.. i dunnoe what to type today as usual...

so, i shall end here because i dont like headaches... i'm so going to take a nap later... whether there is a bitch or not...

Taking Class Photo

2005-09-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

today took class photo... hmmm... this is the first year i took a class photo with the informal and i really went informal... :P

normally, for the pass years, ever since primary school until sec 2, all my informal pictures are like formal ones because i didnt do anything...

at least this year i've improve... i did smile for the camera... i did pose a bit... i did a bit of everything... :p

well... okay... what happened before the photo taking was... i dunno... scary?

the really scary monster, the nemesis, came to my class and point here point there, say the girls hair dunnoe what too long and stuff... or that they got earsticks and that's forbidden... i mean.. what the hell... we have our own lives for crying out loud.. school is just part of it...

okay... then the boys... the boys was okay... except that you know, she is excellent at finding fault with people... she can find fault with almost anything... you know, there was this boy in my class who tucked in his shirt and she pulled it out and said it's not tucked in... of course la.. she pulled it out and she expects it to be tucked in? madness...~

good thing she didnt scold me... but she did say something about the prefects... btw... we are called councillors... not prefects, dumbass~ she said that we are not doing our job... and i was like 'excuse me~ like you are doing your job like that... all you know how to do is to find fault with people... go to hell la...' :P ermhx... i didnt shout that out... i was cursing under my breath....

o well.. that's the only highlight in the day...

came home and ate lunch and some chocolate... the chocolate was too sweet... yuck...

i called starhub about the email thingie in my phone... but guess what.. i called them 3 times before i can actually get the thing working... ai... not really working coz they got technical errors... so... i dunnoe whether is my handphone working fine in the email part...

okay... i think i'm going to go and sleep now..

haiz... exams coming and i havent study yet... heck la...~ tomorrow then start the studying... who cares... :p

Incomplete Sweet Revenge...

2005-09-23T18:56:00.000+08:00

muah ha ha ha... i've finally kicked the person i hate the most in the ass... muah ha ha ha ha...

during taekwondo today, we had sparring...

but i wasnt in the mood to spar because i was exhausted and was running low on energy...

so... the first 2 opponents... i didnt really use much of my strength and mind to really fight them...

until i've realized that i'm going to fight with the 'fiercest' person in the taekwondo club when it comes to sparring.... but today, she's not the fiercest... no long...

she... she is that slut that spreads rumor about me... she is a whore who is so desperate for guys and will not be able to live without the existence of men...

i'm finally given a chance to show myself... to fight her... to seriously kick butts... she should be lucky that i was not able to execute my entire strength on her today...

so... i summoned all the last bit of energy in me to fight her... i take revenge for myself... to show her that i'm not someone who can be messed around with...

i kicked her... in the side... and she almost fell... the sir told me not to use too much strength... i told him that i couldnt because i was tired already... but i was lying... i did that on purpose... it's revenge time and i wont show her any mercy...

when she raised her leg to kick me... i purposely blocked using a normal taekwondo block... normally, i will block using my instincts.. but today, i used the side of my arm to hit really hard down to block... i wouldnt call that block because i striked down with all my strength to her leg... and there she was, with a bruised leg...

but this is only the beginning... throughout the battle, i used all the strength that i could gather... and i was finding all the opportunity to strike her...

until the battle ended... i've only taken part of my revenge... it's not over yet...

the day when i can execute my full strength would come... and i wont show her any mercy... i'll do my best to send her from one end of the hall to the other... or perhaps just making her fall would be good enough...

her puny boyfriend will not be spared too... that arrogant little brat... i will kick his ass one day...

but for now... i will have to wait for that day.. the day when i can finally take my revenge completely...

i will not allow her to defeat me...

i'm determined to kick her ass...

i will have my revenge...

Typical Thursday

2005-09-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

it's thursday already~ the weekends are approaching again... yeah...~

but my stupid math teacher gave more homework... but i'm not going to do them.. well, not all of them... :P

well.. today was not really interesting because i didnt laugh much... normally, i only classify a day fun when i get a chance to laugh at something stupid... :P

nothing much happened today... except that i walked in the rain just now...

okay... ending here... bye...

I'm Back~

2005-09-21T17:39:00.000+08:00

wee~ i'm back to typing my blog already..

i'm feeling better already also... :P

didnt type blog coz was not really feeling well.. then the other days... just dun feel like typing because i seriously need to catch up on my sleep so i spent all the typing time in my bed...

sleeping... :P

but today, now that i've caught my sleep back.. i can type my blog again...~ :P

guess what... i changed my phone... dun worry... number is the same... but this phone is going to bring me good...

to this blog too...

coz... i can take pictures now and post them here... cool right? :P coz last time that one cannot put pictures onto the computer so... ya... this one can so... ya... :D

okay... now let's sample a picture... this picture is of the fullerton hotel which i took when i went to my cousin's wedding on sunday.. i really like this picture a lot.. :p

well... how is it? i like the lightings especially... it's so cool and calm...

okay... shall stop here.. bye... :P

Dunnoe what to Type...

2005-09-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

ai... dunnoe what to type today for my blog lehx... out of topics ler... :P perhaps share with you what happened in school today bahx...

hmmm... nothing happened in the first part of the day...

chemistry did practical... was fun because you get to deal with chemicals... haha... :P need to use the what black black thing, copper oxide, to mix with sulphuric acid and then carry out some steps to get this blue color solution... really nice blue... i love that chemical... :P it's called copper (II) sulphate... haha... :P

then... geography was a usual quite fun coz we got a nice geog teacher... :P

VE was also quite fun... coz teachers acted in a skit for us to watch... damn funny... :P but the rest was boring... :P got to sit in air con place... but then end up high tide need to go to the toilet...

then council meeting... nothing much la... tried pulling people into student liaison department... hmmm... managed to pull 3 la... haha... then quite fun la today de council meeting...

okay lorx... dun want to type ler... :P listening to BoA de song... thanks to gwendaline for lending me the disc... :D

Itchy Itchy...

2005-09-13T16:25:00.000+08:00

i slept at 4am this morning and do you know why? i will tell you why...

ever heard of these irritating freaking creatures called the bed bugs? well... perhaps you have heard of them but have you encounter them before? well, i had...

bed bugs are what look like ladybugs... except that they do not have black polka dots on their back... bed bugs are red and small and flat and not much squishing can actually kill them... they suck your blood like some idiotic parasites and the effects are itchiness... like what mosquitoes do to you...

these bed bugs had been bugging me for so long... and they are really irritating because they made me scratch my hands and legs very often because it itches... but at least now, i can kinda control scratching because someone told me not to do so or else i will end up getting a 'scolding' for self-torture... :P

okay... back to why i slept so early in the morning and so late at night... actually, i went to bed at 11pm... my maid took my bolster away, thinking that the bolster was the cause of my itchiness... but it wasnt the main cause...

i tried to sleep... flipped and tossed in the bed for more than 5 hours... i was so tempted to sleep in the living room or better still, sleep on the floor because i was itching all over from top to toe... at that moment, my fan was on and my air con was off... so, i switched off my fan and turned on the air con and went to sleep...

this time, i succeeded in sleeping... for 2 hours before i wake up again... -_-"

o well... i hope those stupid bed bugs will die and extinct one day or else i will be as sleepy as today... and even when i type this blog, i feel sleepy and a slight headache due to the lack of sleep...

so next time when people say 'good night, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite', take it seriously or you wont have a good night... neither will you sleep tight... ;)

What a 'Wonderful' Day...~ -_-"

2005-09-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

the sun is rising... the birds are chirping... you know that's it's gonna be a beautiful day...

NOT...

hello~ it's the first day of term 4 for crying out loud... the students, us, are dragged out from the used-to-be beautiful day and now, the nightmare is beginning all over again...

okay... today is the first day of school and i dont really like it... nor do i have any special feelings about it because to me, it's just any other pathetic monday with physics lesson...

what did i do today? i dont think i did much... ya... i did a lot of copying of homework... :D smart eh... :P and i did a lot of erm... i dunnoe... nonsens-ing?

early in the morning... was made to copy names of those with long hair... come on... pity the councillors already... copying people's name is not as easy as you think okay... :P it's tiring job because you have to stand and squat stand and squat again and again to get their names...

well... late for bio class as usual... bio class was fun today... the teacher was in a really good mood and was joking throughout and ya... therefore it's fun...

chinese was boring...

math was also boring...

english is okay because we did group work on whether we should wear uniform and to my horror... most of them actually want to wear uniforms... yucks...

physics lesson was stupid... because i was doing my math homework throughout... :P

after school... went to settle the SPO thingies... printed stuff and sorted out stuff... then tomorrow have to settle some more...

haiz... so tired now... and soaked in perspiration... later still need to copy more homework... :P

okay... shall end here... i seriously need to bath and take a nap... :P

School Reopening Tomorrow...

2005-09-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

NO! I DONT WANT SCHOOL TO START! I STILL WANT MY HOLIDAY!

well... i think i wont be the only one making that above statement... one week holiday is too short... and on top of that, half of the holiday is eaten up by school... so practically, you only get a few days of holiday...

and i dont call that holiday~ it's called a weekend... -_-"

and the teachers cant see us free during holidays... because they will feel uneasy.. and thus, homeworks come our way...

anyway, i havent finish my homework... haha... :p because some of them i cannot do... :P

if you're wondering how come i didnt type my blog for so long... it's because i'm using every single second of my holiday carefully...

enjoying myself...

and NOT doing those freaking assignments...

like i said... holidays are for resting and enjoying... not for self-torture...

it's my life anyway... i choose what i wanna do and what i dun wanna do and no one can do anything about it...

okay.. ending here... i dunnoe what else to type already... i'll resume to typing my blogs from tomorrow onwards...

until the next holiday... :P

Back to School... During Holidays...

2005-09-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

have to go back to school today for some stupid math class... really idiotic... wasted my sleeping time... *pouts*

and came home with 2 sets of homework and knew that more would be coming... even worse...

this year's holiday suck... i dun even have the holiday mood... stupid teachers... stupid school...

okay... that's the end of my complain for today... it's only 12.49pm now... wow.. i think i'm going to go and sleep later... and then maybe do my stupid math homework on circles... argh...

btw... some info for you people...

next time when you go and buy DVDs, watch out... never ever ever buy any DVDs which are original and sold at around 9 something... it's too good to be true... and... when you buy an english movie on DVD, make sure that there are no chinese words on it...

you know why?

i'll tell you...

buying them would means that you need another DVD player which can actually play it... for example, if i were stupid enough to buy an english movie, say Elektra, and it has the chinese name of Elektra on the box, i cannot play it on a DVD player, computer or even the PS2.... the code is not correct...

other words, you can only play that disc in china... wasted your money...

so... next time when you buy DVDs, especially at TS, make sure you watch out for these...

before you regret...

Breathless...

2005-09-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

i cant breathe well when i woke up this morning... dunnoe why.. felt a tightness in my chest... really uncomfortable...

okay... i dunnoe what happened to me today but because i couldnt breathe well, i couldnt think that well nor be myself well... horrible...

went out today... really bad... i couldnt breathe well and people thought that i was angry when i wasnt...

i really wasnt angry...~ believe me...~

i just wasnt myself because i think i didnt get enough air... it's not my fault that i couldnt breathe well...

and so many things happened today... and i couldnt accept them properly... resulting in my so called 'bad mood'...

but i'm not in a bad mood...

i just couldnt breathe...

Meetings...

2005-09-02T20:04:00.000+08:00

2 meetings in a row today... taekwondo and council... what a handful... :P

why didnt i type my blog yesterday? because yesterday was too personal... :P not meant for the public... yeah...~ :P

anyway, today is the last day of school for term 3... well... time is really flying pass... term 3 already...

english lesson was boring...

geography lesson was just a test because the teacher wasnt in class... o ya... guess what we did before the test... :P

the relief teacher came into our class and started to talk about singapore thingie.. and i was like... "ya... shut up and let us do our stuff... as if anyone wants to listen to your nagging..."

but when she suddenly told us that there was a test, everyone complained... everyone said that there wasnt a test and stuff...

and when the teacher left the class to collect the papers, we started to paste the notes onto the wall... quickly... :P so that we can look at them...

when the teacher came back... she saw selywn pasting the notes... she got suspicious... she looked around the place and realized that all the notes were on the wall...

we lied... we told her that those were on chemistry... and some on bio... :P but apparently, she didnt buy it and so... there goes our plan... :p

literature... must admit that it's the best literature for the entire sec 3... we get to make paper planes and fly them... instead of looking at the stupid grass is singing or some stupid poems in which you dun understand...

okay... we did look at a poem... but not really into it... the poem is the reason why we get to do this paper plane thingy....

so... we made paper planes throughout the entire lesson... and it was fun... :p we made a huge mess and my table was damn messy...

flying part was fun... because you get to see those planes fly... and land just a few feets away from you... and surprisingly, my group's plane was the winner... it flew the longest distance...

ya ta...~

then, got result slip... wow... i've improved... :D

then, after school... taekwondo meeting.. had to take minutes... first time taking official minutes so kinda stressed up... :p but still got over it..

council meeting for excos... nothing to it...

came home and eat and bath...

slept for a while...

went out...

and typed blog... :D

Teachers' Day~

2005-08-31T15:44:00.000+08:00

tired~

i was running up and down the school today because i had to check things out to make sure things were going out alright..

at least things turned out alright...

the entire process is too long and boring so i lazy to type... :P

well... after school, i rushed back home and rushed back to my primary school... hoping to see my teachers...

well... i did... and seeing is the only thing i did...

my friend gave me my chinese teacher's number... but unfortunately, she could only talk on the phone because she was going on course... sad...

for my primary 6 form teacher... he was having a meeting and i only saw the back of his head... sad also...

and at that moment, i was so damn tired and hungry...

i'm still tired and hungry now because i havent ate anything except for this peppermint ice cream...

okay... i'm gonna eat and sleep... bye... :P

I Can't See? Nah...

2005-08-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

haha... i had a fun time lying to people today that i'm half blind... you know why?

because i wore contact lenses today to school and they really thought that my glasses broke and that i lost my contacts lenses..

well, only 3 of them know... :P

i ran my 2.4 today... again... because i failed the previous time and i dun care anyway... :p but at least the timing i got this time is better...

and when the entire thing was over, i stink like mad... i cant stand the smell myself... phew... :P

the rest of the day was boring... bio was boring, chemistry was even boring because we had to do this stupid math worksheet on triangles... i'm getting SICK of triangles...

and math...

and the last part of the day... worse.. social studies... boring like hell...

when school ends, i was like...

IT'S FINALLY OVER...

and i think i gonna bath later... and sleep... :P

okay... byex...

Teacher's Back... But that doesn't stop the fun... :P

2005-08-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

well well... physics teacher is finally back from his re-service for 2 weeks...

and today, we have physics lesson...

but i wasnt looking forward to it because as usual, physics lesson was boring...

well, not this time because me, ada, sheereen and annis were joking in class... :P

we told jokes in class and laughed at ourselves or one another, or, just show that 'lame' expression on our faces when the jokes are not as funny... and we did that in class... with the teacher around... :P cool... :P

this is how we do it...

sheereen and annis would turn around and we would start talking nonsenses and laugh and laugh and when the teacher comes, sheereen would pretend to ask me something regarding physics...

ya right... asking me physics is like asking a wall... because i wont know the answer... :P

then, the teacher thought i wasnt listening in class... and he flipped my textbook and asked me something about angles... and i got them correct... you know why?

because i learned that in sec 2 and i still remember it... it doesnt mean i'm paying attention to his class... :P

o well... lazy to type further... so shall end here... :D

I'm BORED~

2005-08-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

BORED! i got nothing to do now... BORED!

saturday... normally i wont type blogs on weekends.. but today, i actually typed one because i'm just too bored and i'm apparently looking for something to do... and since i realized that i can type a blog, here i am.. typing a blog...

i woke up around 12 today... feeling bored already, knowing that there is no one to go out with me... and, my sister was missing... went out with someone i suppose... i turned on the computer... i mean, i just turned on the screen because my sister didnt turn off the computer before she go out... wasting electricity...

well... was looking through the internet... chatting with people... and eating lunch at the same time...

then, went to play tenchu... and i've finally unlocked all the special abilities for both ayame and rin... fantastic... but it's only the beginning... played until 3.55 like that... went to bath...

came out of bath room and here i am.. typing...

i'm still bored...~ someone talk to me...~

it's a long time ever since i'm bored on a saturday...

and i hope the following saturdays or weekends for that matter will not be bored like today...

It's a Bad Bad Bad Day!

2005-08-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

today is definitely a very bad day for me...

beginning of the day was still smooth... but after school, everything changed...

i shall tell you the entire story... but hide some truth away because i'm told to...

it goes like this...

after school, i went to did my chinese oral... it didnt turn out that well because i cant read some of the words from the passage, putting me to a great disadvantage...

after oral, went to the councilors' room and the real bad day begins...

mr william bursted into the room, asking where he anti-drug posters are... and we were like 'what are you talking about? does that poster exist?' so, he told us that miss M has the poster and so, someone went to look for her and she came with the bad day maker...

they came into the room.. bad day maker [let's call her BDM for short...] came inside and took the stupid pieces of paper on the table, and she commented that the room was dirty... she has the guts to say that?! omigosh... she was in charged of the cleanliness of the room and it's ironic that she said that...

BDM went out, and called out for person P. we all know that BDM was going to make person P put up the poster or do something similar but it's definitely not good so person P said he dun want to go out of the councilors' room and he shut the door. he SHUT the door and not SLAM the door... i'm the best eye witness there...

BDM got mad and crazed and started yelling like a mad woman, calling out of person P but person P did not want to go out of the councilors' room... but, eventually, he gave in and went out... i followed...

i knew that BDM was about to scold person P so i tried to stop them... i asked BDM what she wants and told her that i will do it for her... but, she RUDELY asked me to go back into the room... what rights do she have to make me do that because the door doesnt belong to her and i'm not her dog... i continued standing there...

now, BDM turned nasty and yelled at ME... i was about to yell back but i was pushed back into the room by person P... the door closed and i pinned my ear to it, trying to get every single part of the conversation out...

the argument began... and it was a fierce one... i stood there listening, wishing that i could go out and slap BDM right in her freaking face but i cant... i dont do slapping in school... but person P being scolded by that BDM, i dont think so... but trusting that he wont let himself lose, i listened...

apparently, BDM wanted respect but firstly, did she give respect to others first? she uses her authority to boss people around... she wanted to make person P take the key from the discipline mistress but person P did a clever twist by asking why BDM didnt go...

person P answered for that yakker... because BDM is afraid of the discipline mistress and have to guts to face her... well, i applause to that because it's true...

quarrel went on and when it finally ended, person P came in again... the news of the argument spreaded out like hotcakes on sale... but not many knows the real cause of it because they wasnt there to witness it...

in between, miss M came in and i started to tell her that BDM was going too far.. miss M told me not to hate BDM for that... i told her i wont but i'm lying... and i told miss M straight that BDM is being bitchy.. and i told her i hate BITCHES... she looked stunned...

well, end of second bad thing that happened today...

actually, all these could be avoided because i did asked person P to go home. if he did listen to me, this will not happen and i wont be typing this really long blog...

after the argument, i tried to make person P go home... well, he wont again and i felt that i was somehow begging him to go home... i didnt want another argument to happen...

he didnt listen to me... i was angry... i grabbed my stuff, kick the chair blocking the door away and closed the door... i regretted not slamming the door... so much for caring... no one appreciates it? fine...

that's the third bad thing which made me breathless... literally... i couldnt breathe well... whenever i get too angry, i would not be able to breathe properly...

i was going to have taekwondo but with me being breathless, how can i do the things properly?

i reached the basketball court and saw all the taekwondo people standing there, apparently waiting for instructions to be given... the chairperson of taekwondo didnt bring her gee and so, no one was there to take class...

and the fourth bad thing which happened... she wanted to make the slut in taekwondo take class... well, that's adding fuel to the fire and i was extremely pissed.. i told her that if she was to take class, i would rather go home... i wont allow her to control me...

well, at least she didnt take class... good...

the training itself is the fifth bad thing.. standing under the hot sun, we had to do our warm ups... which will eventually warm us enough to cook eggs by holding them... and there were clowns making fun of the training at the basketball court and i was really pissed then...

sixth bad thing... during training, i felt dizzy and i almost fell onto the ground... but the good thing was that i still had strength in my thighs to support me further...

i gave up... i told my sir that i wasnt feeling well and he excused me...

well, at least the day is over... but the remains will still be present around...

it's all BDM's fault... she started all my sufferings... although she didnt scold me directly but it still affects me...

curses...

if you don't care, why should i care at all? i dun want to be angry with you... you know that...

Came Home Early Again!

2005-08-24T15:29:00.000+08:00

o yes~! form teacher didnt take VE today and the slack teacher took over...

and once we finished the lame worksheet, we get to go home... haha.. so i finished that pathetic piece and came home...

but before that, went to hougang mall with ruiboon because he wanted to top up his EZ link card... and i went there to get something...

reached home and ate bee hoon [yucks!] i'm still trying to overcome my fear for bee hoon because when i was young, whenever i ate bee hoon, i would feel like puking... dunnoe why... at least now, i can control and press the puking feeling down and feel practically nothing...

and because of that, i'm still hungry! there's nothing for me to eat at home already... besides this biscult which is really plain... but i'm not planning to eat it... i'm gonna find something else...

well... have to go and search for food... [i sound like a desperate wild animal looking for food]...

Came Home Early!

2005-08-23T15:09:00.000+08:00

o yeah! today social studies teacher didnt come... so, we get to go home early... :P that means more time for me to sleep... :P

aww... cannot... still need to study for tomorrow's chemistry test... *pouts*

just when i can get to go home early for once, i got a test on the next day...

i think i might be going to the cash deposit machine later... got money need to deposit coz i almost 'NETS' finish my bank balance already... :P

okay... eating prawns now... dun wanna dirty the keyboard... :P

shall end here... :p

Fell Asleep in Class?

2005-08-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

haha... i kinda fell asleep in class for the first time...

well, but that time was during english test... and i had finished my test so there was nothing else to do and i cant do my math homework so i have nothing to do but sleep...

i was tired... cant blame me... :P

nothing much happened today... physics was another yakking session for most of us and me, ada, ashely and sheereen told stories and it was really fun...

okay, dun think anything else really significant happened...

so... have to go... maybe going out later at night...

The Week is Passing Fast... Again...

2005-08-18T17:58:00.000+08:00

o well... it's thursday again and i'm so happy...

you know why?

because school week is going to end soon and i can have my weekends again... o yeah~

anyway... nothing much happened in school... except that today, school was quite a breeze...

except for the bio test because it's really difficult... i never expect the teacher to suddenly go crazed and change her testing format altogether... well, anyway, who cares? :P

hmmm... i've been a bad boy today... you know why?

because i was eating in class... haha... :P i ate raisins and chocolates...

before english lesson, ashely gave me some raisins... correction... not some... she gave me a handful and it was minutes away from english lesson.

and the teacher came in... oops...

so... i stuffed that handful of raisins into my mouth and started to chew it frantically... :P really comical... coz i dun think people actually stuff a whole handful of raisins into their mouth...

chocolates... at least i didnt stuff them in because i had time to slowly eat it...

walked home in the rain... ate lunch, played tenchu and kicked my brother's friend's ass in that game... played tenchu fatal shadows by myself... bath and here i am...

nothing much to say now...

i shall end here...

I hate people who backstabs others... Especially when the other person was the reason why the backstabber is where he is today... He won't be able to win...

Math Makes Me Mad

2005-08-17T14:55:00.000+08:00

today... 4 periods of A math and 4 period of E math... irritating isnt it? math and math and math and nothing but math the whole day... really tiring...

there was actually chemistry today, but miss lee suddenly wanted to change it to math class. but suddenly, she changed it back to chemistry again so... we did chemistry... but the boring part of it coz it involves calculations so in other words, it's still math...

geography was fun because we were finally going to learn rivers... i mean, i like rivers... dunnoe why... :P they are fun and seem easier to learn also... then today, geog teacher brought us out of class room to this slope to tell us about formation of rivers while we stand in the sun... at least it's not some boring math lesson, sitting in class looking at those stupid functions terms, algebra, area etc etc...

also got lotsa homework... but i not planning to do my a math because the teacher doesnt go to the class list and tick. or, maybe i will just copy some of them from my friends tomorrow and just hand up for the sake of it...

i hate homework, especially math homework...

well... i have to go and study my bio later because there is going to be a quiz tomorrow...

when teachers say they are going to give a quiz... what they mean actually is to give a test... a quiz just sounds nicer... liars...

nothing more to say.. so i better go now... bye bye...

Fallen...

2005-08-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

i've fallen for so many times
the scars remain
but why do i keep falling?
and it gets harder to get up everytime

the sound blasting into my ears
pushing me onto the ground
the push into the tunnel of loneliness
i cant get up well

i know i cant break down
for the simple sake
i cant bear to break it
i know when i'm not wanted

hurts me from inside
all the bruises of history
time can never erase everything
scars will always remain within

all i want is just that
is it really difficult to get
i'm too complicated
no one can understand

everything happens for a reason... and there is a reason for this...

Teachers - Missing

2005-08-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

o well... today, there was actually PE and social studies... but guess what... during PE, we played by ourselves and during social studies, we had to entertain ourselves because...

our teachers are gone... for their various reasons...

so, today is quite slack... :P

had meeting in the afternoon... council meeting... one of the shortest that i ever been to and okay... at least it's short... good enough...

after that, was crapping in the canteen with the teacher and friends...

came home...

actually... i didnt meant to type all these because i remember i got something better to type for today's blog...

but i forgot...

i got short term memory loss... :P

well anyway, i think i'm gonna bath and sleep for a while... later need to go and buy present... :P

私が... 持っていた親友であるそしてよく小さい兄弟... しかし、孤独のトンネルに私を投げてはいけない。それは傷つく。私は... 失いたいと思わない...

Blue Tack In my Hair

2005-08-15T16:15:00.000+08:00

yeap... somehow and someone threw blue tack into my hair during physics slacking time...

mr lim wont be around for some time... yeah~

anyway, i was picking my hair throughout the last few minutes of physics lesson because of the sticky thingie in my hair... and i wasnt the only one...

ashely, ada, sheereen and even the teacher seem to enjoy plucking my hair... -_-"

well... at least annis offered her comb and now, most of the blue tack is gone...

i'm tired... i wanna sleep... last 3 days didnt use com coz was too busy working and too tired...

well, i didnt enjoy working much last night because i was thrown into this place called 'loneliness' because...

something happened...

and i dun wanna say... :D

only someone knows about it...

well... i'm going to stop here because there's nothing much i can say further...

bye bye...

Yawnz...

2005-08-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

i'm tired...

very sleepy...

why?

coz i slept at 2.30+ last night... i went to work...

it's not your fault... :) [if you know who i'm referring to...]

these few days didnt type blog coz i dun bother to... and besides, those days were too private to be made public... :P and i'm lazy of making riddles to them so... okay... :P

well... nothing much happened today... except people keep commenting on my new hairstyle...

thanks for noticing... [sarcastically]

physics lesson... mr lim called rui boon by my name... and i was like 'he's not broy... broy is here...'

ya... i shouted that and the entire class started to laugh... :D

anyway, nothing much now... math teacher gave homework again... but not as many... i just hope she dun give any more tomorrow coz typing homework on my blog again and again is tiring work... especially when everytime, you have to think of more points on why shouldnt teachers give homework...

well... got to go now... i'm going to bath and sleep like a pig...

:D

Day before National Day

2005-08-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is national day and i love this year's national day...

you know why?

because monday is a half day...

tuesday is a public holiday...

wednesday is also a public holiday...

that means i can sleep longer... :P and sleep more...

i just woke up... :P

but, it also means　へんたい　teachers get to give more homework...

anyway, nothing much in school happened... just sat there and watch them clown around on stage... then, we home... but it was raining so i ran in the rain home... :P

okay... i dunnoe what to write already... so bye bye...

Sick... :-(

2005-08-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

argh... i'm sick...

i mean i got flu and fever and i cannot sit straight...

erm...okay...sitting straight has nothing to do with it...

but i'm still sick... :-(

and my butt hurts because i'm sitting in an odd position...

serves me right...

anyway, here to tell you people to take care of yourself, especially during this period because i guess that the flu virus is on the loose and the rainy and suddenly sunny weather would make it worse...

so, drink more water and rest more...

and chuck the homework aside...

just kidding... :P

Thanks for the Homework... NOT!!!!!!!

2005-08-05T17:54:00.000+08:00

argh... did i tell you people that i hate homework? especially when they are given on weekends? if i didnt, i'm telling you know... i officially declare that...

I HATE HOMEWORK! ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY ARE GIVEN ON WEEKENDS AND I HATE THOSE PEOPLE!

okay... why am i so pissed by homework? okay...singaporeans should know that national day is approaching and we will have a long holiday.

well... let me define what holiday means in the dictionary... and obviously, teachers are bad in english because they dun know what holiday means...

holiday
n 1: leisure time away from work devoted to rest or pleasure
2: a day on which work is suspended by law or custom
v : spend or take a vacation

let me ask you guys... is the word homework inside the definition? no... holiday means that we can have our own leisure time away from work and we can do what we like, be it resting or playing or what-so-ever-ing. but look at what the teachers did to us? homework homework and homework. we are suppose to do what we want during the holiday and we obviously do not want homework.

i hope teachers actually see this... let's see how they can argue about this... i will be so pleased to debate with them... *frowns*

well...guess what people... if teachers love to give us homework, it's our turn to do the same. what goes around comes around and i will try my best for that to happen and reach the teacher. i want to make them understand that homework is not fun at all... and here's a plan...

for example...

but i didnt say i was going to carry it out coz i doubt my classmates will play along... not unless they really thinks alike with me...

my math teacher, who is also unfortunately my chemistry teacher, gave us 3 sets of homework. 2 math and 1 chemistry and god, the chemistry paper is so thick. okay... some other teachers give homework too but theirs are not major... my chem/math teacher is the main cause...

not that i dun like her, i mean, i like her personality and stuff but i prefer it when she is not teaching... her teaching is okay but the way she give homework is madness... that's why i'm so unhappy about it...

okay...back to my plan... if we want to make it go around, we have to give homework to the teacher but how is that possible, you might ask.

here is what will happen...

she gave us homework right? good, we do the homework like good little kids and give it back to her... just before the holiday... and we demand her to correct and grade your homework... and give them back to us once the holiday ends... and no going-through-in-class thingie is allowed coz we spent so much effort on the homework and all she do is to walk up to the board and talk? i dun think so...

then, she will understand how irritating homework is because she have to correct it and if she didnt, we would make a fuss and start complaining... [did i say that i was dreaming about this plan working? i didnt? okay, now i say it... but how i wish it would happen]

o well, if the teacher wants to play, we will play along with her. she teaches several classes and she have to correct their work too. but look, she gave us the work and we got something better to do than homework so asking her to correct our work is just part of her life. she will experience what we call stress...

i'm evil... i know... but i think we shouldnt just sit there and suffer... we are human for crying out loud... we shouldnt get bossed around by this homework which eats time...

so... let me define homework...

Homework:
Work, such as schoolwork or piecework, that is done at home.

yeap... let me change the meaning...

Homework:
Work, that is done at home. For students, work that is given by teachers who cannot bear see students free during holidays and for teachers who do not know the actual meaning of holiday.

well... do you guys agree? air your views if you wish to coz i'm listening...

the world is never fair...

The Nightmare is Over... Well, At least for now...

2005-08-04T16:26:00.000+08:00

The CA is finally over! YEAH!

The CA had made my last few days miserable... I mean not just mine, it made everybody in my school, except the sec 4s *pouts*, miserable.

For the pass few days, I've been walking around with books and notes in my hands and I have to worry about what's going to be examined tomorrow and worry about failing...

and at night when i'm talking on the phone, i have to read my notes to the person i'm talking to...

well, not really reading to him... i was reading to myself... or i would be writing notes...

but now that it's over...

I DUN HAVE TO WORRY ANYMORE...

I CAN TALK ON THE PHONE IN PEACE... :P

okay... at least for now...

school today was okay... exams the whole day so nothing much i can say about...

everyone was so happy after the last paper... math... i can see that on their faces...

guess what i did to 'celebrate' the end of the CA?

I burnt the Exam Time Table into ashes... Haha... here are some pictures for you to look at... :P

this picture shows me lighting up the time table by my sink...

i dun wanna dirty my floor with ashes so the sink is the best place to burn the freaking piece of paper...

now this picture shows the freaking paper being reduced to nothing but black ashes... cool right?
:P

o well... this shows how much i actually hate exams... :P you can try that too next time when you finished your exams... just remember to do it near a sink and dun burn the house down... :P

well... i can finally rest well now... :-D

Going Crazy~

2005-08-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

studying studying and studying

had been doing that these few days because of the CA week...

i hate tests... it's madness... i totally cannot do much during that period of time besides looking at notes and textbooks...

god~! i'm going crazy from studying...

why do we have to undergo this kinda stress? どうして？

o well...i cant sit here much longer... got to go and study bio...

it will be over... but will it remain there forever?

なぜ私で叫んだか? ので私が悪い状態を感じることを知っているか?

2005-08-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

oops... didnt type blog yesterday coz... no time... and dun feel like it...

o ya...you might ask what my title means... it means...

never mind... not telling...

it's just for me to know... coz no one can actually understand...

not unless you are japanese or something...

even if so, it might not be accurate...

anyway, i dun feel myself today...

because something bad happened yesterday and i dun like it one bit... why dont i like it? because i dun like it so that's that. what happened? only i knows... and i'm not going to reveal...

unless...

never mind...

nothing much happened today... just the basic lessons in school... with my really bad mood... why cant i just get over with it? i wont die because of it but i just feel horrible... from the tone and the way... makes me rain inside...

haiz... you dun understand what i'm typing do you? good for you coz you are not dumb... i'm just making it difficult to understand.

or maybe impossible to understand...

well...okay...shall end here... lazy to type further... i wanna go and study...

and maybe hide my feelings in between the pages of the books...

Pissed Me Off...~

2005-07-30T14:07:00.000+08:00

oops...yesterday didnt type blog coz i didnt even get the time to actually literally touch the computer so i had to type it now...

too many things happened yesterday so i lazy to type the entire story out... so i only type one part which you people AND TEACHERS should know...

as students, we are all very afraid of one thing; and that's homework. any body who actually love homework is such a dork... homework is the students' and any sane teenagers' worst nemesis.

but let me tell you something. it seems that the teachers love to give us homework like they are raining from the sky. i mean, hello~!, we have already spent half of our lives in school doing work and now, they want to eat our time at home by giving us homework.

okay... i didnt say that homework is completely bad... but the teachers dunnoe when to give and when not to give.

let me give you an example:

yesterday, during ENGLISH lesson, my math teacher gave my monitor a set of MATH worksheet [i rather call them workSHIT], to torment us for the weekends. and when i got that news, i was like 'Miss Blah Blah is so JIAN!" [Jian means cunning and sly] and i shouted that in class.

allow me to explain bad habits of teachers.

they love to give homework when it's not during their lessons, or they love to give homework when the bell goes off [meaning it's not their lesson also] and, the most JIAN one, is that they love to give homework on friday... to kill our weekend...

so...do you agree to that my fellow schooling people? i bet you agreed.

so what should teachers do?

they should not give homework during other teachers' period. they should not give homework once the bell ring. and, the teachers should talk among themselves to give homework on the weekends and not give more than 2 sets in total.

i get really pissed off because teachers do that. it mean it's not their lesson already still give homework. everytime when the teacher say that the one piece of work we have to do, the teacher have to mark 40+ pieces. HELLO~ THEY WERE THE ONE WHO GIVES US THE HOMEWORK IN THE FIRST PLACE SO IT'S NOT OUR PROBLEM!

we are human and we have our lives. students' life in singapore is too much of revolving around school and homework. at least they should give us the rights of freedom.

teachers love the word time management a lot don't they?

they love to ask us to plan our time and blah. who cares about that?! we go to school at the break of dawn, and return back home around 3 - 4 something, leaving us with such a short time. what is there to plan about? students who reach home at that time would be feeling tired already and what's the use of asking us to study more at home? if that's the case, they can jolly well extend school time to 24 hours in that case.

well, i just wanna vent my anger because of that extra math worksheet here... so now, i feel a bit better...

life is never fair, but at least we can do something to even things out.

Creepy...~

2005-07-28T15:59:00.000+08:00

today is just one of those typical days in which i go to school and study...

for thursdays, my recess is so early that after recess, i have to survive 4 hours of lessons until i can get another break. horrible and tiring... and guess what, i had to carry this whole pile of books up and down and around the school just to attend my lessons. tiring work...

early in the morning was math... and i had a test... and i thin i'm going to do badly for the test... it's so difficult... *pouts*

after recess, i had Bio, A Math, Eng and Phy. The creepy experience happened during bio class... really creepy...

during bio class, we had to do the workbook. okay... so i was doing and doing when i got stuck at a particular question in which i dunnoe how to do. so i turned around to ask rabiah and sheereen. and they dunnoe how to do too... great... so i turned around and my book was missing...

i thought it was another one of ada's tricks... [ada is my good friend who sits with me all the time, except when i have bio, chem and phy in the lab.] there was this time she took my file and i didnt know... but this time, it's not her. so i looked around.

ashely didnt take it. neither did athena. so i dunnoe who took my freaking green book. so i was searching high and low and complaining and during that time, somehow pissed athena off coz i was moaning like mad... but it's not my fault that my book is missing... it just vanished into thin air just like that...

so the lesson ended... i turned around to rabiah and sheereen again. then, i heard something fell onto my table. i turned around and looked. viola~ my book appeared and i dunnoe where the hell it came from...

ghost~...

maybe it was ashely who hidden my book but rabiah told me it wasnt her. or maybe rabiah and ashely knew all along where my book was. if it wasnt them, then i could only be a ghost...~

or maybe someone else for that matter...

anyway, i got my book back so it's fine...

A Math was the usual 'sit in class and do work' lesson. english was kinda boring... doing informative writing theory... i hate english lessons with powerpoint slides... most of the time they are boring and obviously, today's lesson is boring~

physics... the teacher wasnt in school so we had free period. did my A Math assignment during that time... i mean i copied my A Math assignment from ruiboon... :P i forgot how to do everything at that time...

break time~! finally after 4 hours of continuous boring lessons, finally get to rest...

chinese lesson was also boring. did the stupid chinese dunnoe what compo thingie... isaac wasnt in school so no jokes from him today to lighten the lesson.

came home tired... and hungry...

but now, i'm full coz i ate a lot for lunch... :P

okay... i think i'm going to end here... i need to sneeze... :P i think i going to play tenchu and then go and sleep later...

さよなら。。。 (sayonara)

Messy~

2005-07-27T16:01:00.000+08:00

I'll live because of the sword... And die because of the sword...

The week is passing fast... which is a good thing because i want my weekends... haha... :p

school was more fun than the other average days...

but, the thing i dun like today is that i got 4 periods of A Math and 2 periods of E Math... all maths... and Math Makes Me Mad...

A Math was okay... because i understand what the teacher was talking about. E Math was also okay... Same reason...

Chemistry was funny... we were in this classroom on the ground level. then there was this man who was fixing the window. everyone was staring at the man instead of listening to what the teacher was talking. and the teacher was also distracted then all of us, including teacher, stared at the man... haha...

Geography was okay also... lesson was on weathering and the teacher asked us to give stupid reasons for weathering... like elephant sat on the rock and the rock burst, lightning struck the rock... etc etc... all those nonsense...

VE was the most fun... and most messy...

National day is approaching as we all know... and in our school, we had to make this t-shirt, i mean design the t-shirt. my t-shirt looked like crap so i'm not going to talk more about it... :p

the fun part was doing the shirt... we were given these tubes of paint to decorate the plain shirt... ashely and i were doing it together and god, we made a mess. we smeared the paint on our hand and then printed it onto the shirt. because of that, i had to run up and down to the toilet to wash my hands 4 times... and guess what... lucky for ashely, the female toilet was under cleaning... and she...

went into the male toilet...

i know...gross... but the worse thing was when i finally finished the hand printing part, i was about to add more things to the shirt.. so i took this black glittery colored paint and tried to spread it on my shirt...

but it's stuck...

i pressed harder...

no use...

so i lifted the paint tube off my shirt and pressed really hard...

stuck...

i applied all my strength...

a long stream of paint shot out from the nozzle of the tube...

it flew across me...

some landed on my shirt...

and the remaining...

landed on...

ashely...

:P

haha...and she got glittery thingies to her arm and her uniform... haha... damn funny... i had a hard time trying to control myself from laughing... haha... i'm still laughing now... then she went over to the water cooler to wash herself... at least now, it's not that bad...

so i came home after VE... no homework today also...haha...

o ya...later got Charmed... :p

okay... gonna stop typing now... nothing more for me to say already...

No Homework Today~ Yeah~~~~

2005-07-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

Wow... Today no homework nehx... i like that feeling... :P can go and sleep afterwards... :D

okay...let's me tell you about what happened so far today in school...

i dun wanna type my blog at night coz...

coz...

never you mind...

anyway, went to school in the rain... raining cats and dogs and birds and tigers and lions... [ya you get me...] wanted to go into the councillors' room but it's locked... and the president was standing outside the door... so i dun expect it to be unlocked any sooner...

then...waited and waitied...

finally, logicman came to open the door and viola... can go inside already... [lame...yes i know...just to entertain you people...]

then nothing significant happened... until during assembly...

let me tell you something... everytime during assembly, i would be everywhere except in the hall... assemblies are really boring... i rather keep myself busy for the 1 hour doing something than sitting my butt sore listening to stupid yakkings...

then my friends and i started to play this game called mary and larry and dots here dots there game... really funny...

PE was... okay... not exactly PE... not unless you call sitting in the science homeroom PE... we talked crap in the room... disturbed the teacher... keep suan-ing whatever he said... and then just... ya... make fun of him in front of him with him aware of it... haha... i was naughty today coz it's not often i disturb teacher... examples would be like that...

teacher: today, i'm going to teach you all badminton rules and regulations
me: what's so difficult about badminton? it's just hitting the shuttlecock over the net.

teacher: i'm really good at badminton
me: ya... and you ALMOST got into the singapore team... ya... ALMOST...

ya... i really said all these and there are more... but i forgot... :P

chinese lesson and bio lesson... nothing much to them...

chemistry lesson... had chemistry test... it wasnt difficult nor was it easy... teacher wasnt in class so i went around talking with people and disturbing them if i could...

social studies lesson was boring... ya... you know what i mean... no idiots would like to go into social studies class because it's just plain history and memorizing work and writing and etc etc etc... furthermore, the lesson is dull and *yawnz*... it can make people fall asleep... if you take history or social studies as a subject, you would understand how i feel...

came back home straight after lessons... almost fell aslept on the way home because i was feeling, i mean i AM, feeling sleepy... imagine if i were to do PE today, i think it would be a miracle that i could survive...

okay... i think enough already... i wanna go and bath and go take a nap...

well at least there are no homework nor tests to worry about for the afternoon...

"It's Monday~!" (So What?!) Today Stinks...~ Literally...

2005-07-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

So okay... any idiot knows that today is monday so i'm just repeating it off the calendar.

okay...today is any other typical monday...

let me see what happened...

morning. went to school with vera and crapped on the way there. walked into coucillors' room only to find that it stinks and that one of the windows was occupied by the corpse of dead ants...

I OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCE THAT I HATE ANTS~

okay...then i dumped my bag and went to the locker to get my books. and since it's a monday, i have to take the school in the pledge taking [which we called 'taking command'] and i think i pronounced the word 'citizen' wrongly... my tongue was tied... :-P

lessons were as usual...

BORING~

nothing to bio nor english. except that during english, have to do this card... that was the only fun part during english. the rest of the lesson was typical yakking of the teacher. chinese was also boring... at least not as bad as english... but i dun like the teacher... math was the only fun subject today... why? coz thanks to some of the missing people in the class who went for this science thingie called the elementz, we get half the lesson free...~ (yeah~) and i learned my katagana then... [but not much went into my head though...]

physics was after school. in between, we had a break. so went to councillors' room and did homework. not exact do but ya...did it anyway... talked crap there... climbed onto table...

but at least the room smells nicer...

physics lesson was the usual 'Yak-Experiment-Workbook-Go Home' nothing new.

AND HERE AGAIN, I OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCE THAT I HATE PHYSICS.

did the dunnoe what 'heat the ice above bunsen burner with the thermometer stuck inside' experiment. the burner gave a stupid smell which i hated... stinky...

went home straight after school coz i dun wanna waste more of my life in school...

reached home and to my dismay, my computer was shifted... so i start yelling [not exactly yelling, i just kicked up a fuss]... and then i changed the computer's position to how it was like previously... yeah...~

searched for songs... went for shower... went to bed and here i am... typing...

and i killed some ants while typing because they walked on the computer table... and i dunnoe why... the table is sticky...

at least it's not stinky...

Let me introduce ... These are some of the important people in my life... And I think that their names will appear in my blog entrys... so..., it's best to let you all know who they are...

Pink Girl: Vera [My Sister]

Blue Girl: Rena [Cousin]

Red Girl: Laura [Cousin]

Black Guy with funny hand signs: Leon [My Brother]

Purple Girl: Sheena [Cousin]

Black Guy with no funny expressions: Me [ME] :P

Weird Me...

2005-07-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

i cant help it but i think i'm weird... really weird...

how can i do what i did today?

it's not correct...

uh uh... i'm not telling you what happened coz it's a secret... :P

but my heart scattered again...

and it took me quite sometime to glue it back together again...

you dont understand do you?

well i do...

and someone else do...

and no one's gonna tell you...

:D

初め。。。

2005-07-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

「初め」is pronouced as [Hajime]... and It means... The beginning...

After some consideration, I decided to bring my Blog back again...

Ya right... What's the big deal?

The big deal is...

That this time...

Never mind...

Anyway, my Blog is black again...[What's the big deal again?]

Well who cares...

So long as I'm happy...

I don't care what others say...

Yes! I'm crazy...

-_-"