Buroi no Kage : Revival (for a moment at least...)

yo people~ due to popular demand, i'm shameless aint i, i'm trying to revive my blog...

again...

well, what excuse shall i give for not typing my blog these few months?

"i'm lazy"

okay... fullstop...

well... what makes me want to start my blog again?

the many things happening in my life made me... there are too many things happening around so i think it will be good if i can just put them here to express all my feelings... god~ long time didnt blog now my typing sucks...

anyway...

let me tell you some of the 'hot' topics that i've been engaged in these few days...

or weeks...

or...

never mind...

since there are many things i'm going to say in this blog entry, let me split it up using sub-headings...

Family Conflict arousing Curiousity of others... [Yellow... For i want happiness back again...]

first of all... the internal conflict with so many people from our class has noticed... and what can i say about it? nothing... thank you... for curious people, please wait patiently for the explanation next time when everything is settled...

well... for people involved in this conflict... we all know exactly what is happening...

just talking about it makes me want to sigh~

haiz..........

why is this happening to us? is the family going to crumble into nothing?

どうして？！

the misunderstanding has to go... and it will...

trust me on this...


anyway, i have no idea what i'm talking about... i'm just trying to see how much space i can occupy by crapping...

it's a hard job you know...~ must admire my patience for thinking of new crap to talk about...

well well... this is not the only thing that is happening to poor broy... there is more...

here comes another sub-heading...

Student Council; the Organization which torments Me [Red... For expressing my anger]

so many things had happened to me because of the student council and you know what? it makes me detest the council for the very first time in my 4 years education... i've taken so long to realize that being in the student council means i will need to suffer...

what do i need to suffer? i have to sacrifice my time for meetings... i have to do tasks and when they are not done properly, i get yelled at... and if they are well done, nothing will happen to me... i have to shout at people for their misdeeds and when i tell the teacher, they dont bother... if they dont care, why should i?

let me tell you more... do you know that every birthday that i've spent in the school as a councillor is always terrible... let me give you an example... sec 2, sports day... i have to go and do gate duty and make sure anyone else, including me, doesnt sneak back home... sec 3, i had to attend exco meeting until 6 something in the pm... sec 4, which is this year, i have to force myself to attend the council meeting although i submitted a letter that i would not go... and guess what, the teachers wanted to scold me because of the letter because they are not dumb not to detect the sarcasm inside the letter...

i'm unlucky... that's what i can say...

as a sec 4, the councillors should be left alone to study for the o levels or at least to rest after providing service to the school for the past years... but no~ i have to do duties like some other councillors...

for instance, sports day this year really pissed me off and it's because of this incident, i start to hate the council board, including the teachers leading it... they are practically using up all my free time and PERSONAL time to do things that if i were to complain, i will be yelled at...

where is my freedom of speech?!

here at least...

o yes... back to the topic... i was attending to the 'cute' and 'adorable' sec 1s who are so assholic and irritating and annoying and i was shouting at them because it's either they dont understand english or they are deaf... or both... and when i went to tell the teacher that those little monkeys were misbehaving, she asked me to let them be...

let them be?! then what's the point of me doing duty?! i felt redundant and helpless...

the council teachers always say that they will be behind the councillors... let me tell you, after this incident, this statement is officially

BULLSHIT!

what else... yeap... this saturday, my school is going to perform at the DBS arts centre and my chinese teacher gave me 2 tickets to go to the show... so i planned to go out with フグイ... for i wanted to enjoy my saturday afternoon...

but do you know what?!

i have to do ushering duty... and i was planning what to wear here and they ruinned my plans...

although i've told the teacher that i have tickets for this thing, i'm not spared... i had to do duty then after that, go inside for the show...

i mean, all the other councillors who did not buy the tickets will be able to go in after the duty... what difference does it make if i have the ticket or not... pissed... i'm so pissed~ the only good thing that i can think of is that we get the better seats... that's all! this is so unfair... i want justice done!

22nd april... stand down of all CCAs... i cant wait for this day... then, i will be spared from the torments of this corrupted organization and i will be alone... like a normal student... oh how i wish i'm just a normal students and i shall be the one being shouted by the councillors... why is it the other way round...

but i have to be prepared... i wont be surprise if after 22nd april, i have continue doing duty... because...

it's a corrupted organization...


o well... typing all these makes me feel pissed all over again... now... let me go to the third bad thing that is going to happen... on saturday too...~ and it's because of the council ushering duty, this happens... read this...

p.s... any other councillors who read this, keep it to yourself because i'm sick of having to argue with teachers... thank you very much...

and if teachers were to read this, i have to say sorry because this is what i feel and i have the right to type what i want so long as i didnt break the law of singapore...

A girl who LOVES poking her nose into other people's plans... [Green... for you make me sick!]

this girl has been poking her nose into my plan for saturday...

knowing that my saturday was already ruinned by the corrupt organization, i was pissed enough when i went for the usher duty briefing this afternoon, sacrificing math lesson, which i'm not sad for sacrificing...

but what makes me more pissed is when this fuc...ing (oops, i sweared~ but who cares!) セラリン is going to spoil my plans for saturday...

as my birthday so happens to be this month, i treated my friends and family to pizza... and the only person that i've not treated and this person plays a major role in keeping me sane, フグイ...

well, since i was going to ask him out for the show on saturday, which is unfortunately ruinned by the duty which i dreaded doing, i thought of treating him to dinner after the show... and since the excos had to do the duty at the 7pm slot and i had the tickets for the 2pm slot, it's only wise that both of us are doing the 2pm slot duty...

but... this silence between two will soon be broken by the 3rd person... セラリン ... she has totally spoiled my plans... knowing her, she will tag along with us if i were to treat フグイ to dinner... and the best part is, フグイ wont mind her coming along...

but i MIND totally!

so, i expressed my piss-ness to フグイ... and i warn him that if my attitude on saturday is bad, it's because of セラリン 's unwanted appearance...

i'm still thinking of a way to get rid of her... i told フグイ that if she were to follow us, i will give up my ticket to the both of them and i will go ahead and do the 7pm slot...

correction, i shall just stay at home... i've better things to do besides repeating 'this way please' like a broken tape recorder...

my friends and sister told me to tell セラリン off... but something in me just didnt allow that to happen... i DO want to tell her off but it wont be nice...

but if i were nice to an enemy, i'm being cruel to myself... what a dilemma...

the only way to solve this problem is that フグイ has has has~ to be on my side for the first thing, which is hardly possible considering that セラリン is so manipulative, and that i have to have the guts to say 'hey bitch... do you know your presence makes me SICK?! get out of my sight!'...

haiz... anyway... i'll see on saturday... there are many strategics to use...

but they wont be nice ones...

typing these entries just made me feel that it's necessary for me to voice out my opinions... and i feel so pissed again...


フグイ ... if you read this entry... please dont get angry because these are my thoughts... you know that...

o well... let me end here... this blog is reasonably interesting enough and long enough to keep people reading... shall type again...

when i feel like it...

tatas~

[blue... for i like this color...]